Bboys and Ballerina was good :) I enjoyed sakae, esplanade and many many other random things we were doing. I love you all ♥
Count on me through thick and thin A friendship that will never end When you are weak, I will be strong Helping you to carry on Call on me, I will be there Don't be afraid Believe me when I say Count on me
It's hard to see the sunshine through the rain I know sometimes it seems as if it's never gonna end But you'll get through it
Keep smiling, keep shining Knowing you can always count on me, for sure That's what friends are for For good times and bad times I'll be on your side forever more That's what friends are for
HandWritten on; 11:25 PM
Lord, please bring our family back together. I pray for her enlightenment, that she may once again find you. I ask that my family will come back to you.
I see the king of glory Coming on the clouds with fire The whole earth shakes
I see his love and mercy Washing over all our sin The people sing
Hosanna Hosanna Hosanna in the highest
Heal my heart and make it clean Open up my eyes to the things unseen Show me how to love like you have loved me
Break my heart from what breaks yours Everything I am for your kingdoms cause As I go from nothing to eternity
Sunday, June 29, 2008
HandWritten on; 12:24 AM
Do you ever feel like breaking down? Do you ever wanna run away? Do you lock yourself in your room? With the radio on turned up so loud That no one hears you screaming
I'm so tired.
I'm so tired of arguing, I'm so tired of pleading, I'm so tired of struggling, I'm so tired of trying, I'm so tired of whining, I'm so tired of emo-ing, I'm so tired of asking, I'm so tired of crying,
I'm so tired.
She NEVER understands, she never will. To be hurt To feel lost To be left out in the dark To be kicked when you're down To feel like you've been pushed around To be on the edge of breaking down And no one's there to save you
Thursday, June 26, 2008
HandWritten on; 8:16 PM
Just when I thought nothing was going to be worse than Chemistry, then comes along Physics, for which I knew how to answer none of the questions. This time, I am not exaggerating. And you know, this is such an unprecedented situation; I have never felt so stupid before. My entire life I have sat for papers which were tough, but never have I stared at the paper and not know what the hell are the words glaring at me meant. When I don't know how to do a question, I normally would still have a few topics and formulas in mind, but this time I was just clueless. For the first time, I sat for a paper and felt utterly abject at every single question.
So the cts are finally over, but I don't feel at all relieved. Because I know that I have to face the consequences of my obstinate behaviour when I receive my results next week. I probably won't be able to go to for church activities, hang out with friends, my pocket money will be cut, I'll be grounded and my phone will get confiscated. All these till the end of the year.
Really, was slacking the past 2 terms worth the cost I have to pay ?
Kincheng and I were being querelous while we moaned, sulked and talked for 4 hours as we walked around town and ps. Had a great time complaining and whining to each other, I love you girl !
Adidas (Cine)
Subway
Heeren
Plaza sing
home !
I need to wake up from the 'after Os' mood. Hopefully my appalling results would slap me real hard in the face, I do need a tight one.
One minute I held the key Next the walls were closed on me And I discovered that my castles stand Upon pillars of salt, and pillars of sand
I hear Jerusalem bells a ringing Roman cavalry choirs are singing Be my mirror, my sword, my shield My missionaries in a foreign field For some reason I can't explain Once you go there was never, never an honest word That was when I ruled the world
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
HandWritten on; 5:30 PM
I realise, I'm blogging much more often than during the holidays. And its not suppose to be like that, this is the cts period :OOOO Math turned out to be terrible too, not as horrible as chem, but still, 80% U-grade. (I'm counting on that 20% )
Anyway, tagged by juliaaaa, so here goes:
Pick your birth month. → Strike out anything that doesn't apply to you. → Bold the five-ten that best apply to you. → Copy to your blog, lj, xanga, wordpress. → Tag 5 people from your friends list.
AUGUST: Loves to joke. (lame jokes, yes) Attractive. (yuck, attractive ?! no way.) Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered.(I'm not so petty right!) Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. (hmmm, not really that easily) Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. (I get distracted all the time) Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses.(hey, my immune system's pretty good) Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic.(I actually believe there's a special someone out there awww )Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.
Dot, Bel, Ken, Jingwen, Junfeng, Jasmine (Only if you have time to get away from studying okay !)
JANUARY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.
FEBRUARY: Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.
MARCH: Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.
APRIL: Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.
MAY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.
JUNE: Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.
JULY: Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.
AUGUST: Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.
SEPTEMBER: Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.
OCTOBER: Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.
DECEMBER: Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
HandWritten on; 10:29 PM
I guess this is going to be a verbose post. Then again, I don't have much to post about because the past 2 days have been freaking cts, which not only bores me to tears, but also demoralises me. I've lost 20+ marks in chem paper for not even touching those questions. My econs essays were submitted incomplete and my gp was the most nonsensical piece of shit I've ever handed up. Math isnt going to be any better judging by my failure to cover half the topics tested.
And it really isn't helping to get distracted at this moment. Why can't I just stop thinking ?? I need to focus and stop thinking about ridiculous things that aren't studies-related.
I miss dance, I miss the dancers, I miss dancing. And I miss you. Are you ever going to tell me ?
I still hear your voice I still feel your touch in my dreams Forgive me, my weakness, but I don't know why Without you it's hard to survive Your arms are my castle, your heart is my sky They wipe away tears that I cry The good and the bad times, we've been through them all You make me rise when I fall
Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling And everytime we kiss, I swear I could fly Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last Need you by my side Cause everytime we touch, I feel the static And everytime we kiss, I reach for the sky Can't you hear my heart beat so, I can't let you go Want you in my life
Sunday, June 22, 2008
HandWritten on; 7:00 PM
SHOPPING TODAY :D the whole day from late morning till evening.
I feel good :D
I heard this song like, 4 times today: twice at The Heerens, once at Far East, once at Wisma and once more in my mp3. Actually, that's 5 times, hah.
I see you, you with him He ain’t right but you don’t trip You stand by while he lies then turn right round and forgive
I can’t take to see your face With those tears runnin down your cheeks But what can I do I gotta stay true Cause deep down I’m still a G
And I don’t want to come between you and your man Even though I know I treat you better than he can
Girl I can’t help but wait Till you get back with him it don’t change Can’t help but wait Till you see that with me it ain’t the same Can’t help but wait Till you see you for what you really are Baby girl you are a star And I can’t help but wait
It aint fresh to just let him call the shots You’re a queen you should be Gettin all that someone’s got You should be rockin the latest in purses bracelets and watches You’re worth much more than that occasional "I love you, I’m thinking of you"
And I don’t wanna come between you and your man no Even though I know I treat you better than he can
Girl I can’t help but wait Till you get back with him it don’t change Can’t help but wait Till you see that with me it ain’t the same Can’t help but wait Till you see you for what you really are Baby girl you are a star And I can’t help but wait
Get it together You can do better See is believin And I see what you need so I’m going to play my position Let you catch what you’ve been missing I’m calling out
Girl cuz I can’t help but wait Till you get back with him it don’t change Can’t help but wait Till you see that with me it ain’t the same Can’t help but wait Till you see you for what you really are Baby girl you are a star And I can’t help but wait baby
Till you get back with him It don’t change Can’t help but wait Till you see that with me it ain’t the same Can’t help but wait Till you see you for what you really are Baby girl you are a star And I can’t help but wait
CTs tomorrow, eurgh.
Saturday, June 21, 2008
HandWritten on; 2:00 PM
Finally been to dot's house, ahahaha. I love spending time with churchies, we are seriously crazy when we're together.
Kungfu Panda and Don't mess with Zohan were great ! I'm going to catch more movies after common tests, haven't been on a movie spree since I don't know when.
How I wish life could just be like this, free and fun. No studying, no tests, no exams. But I guess it's because of all the stress we face that little things like camwhoring becomes great.
I've done 1 chapter of math, 3 chapters of chem, 0 chapters of physics and econs. Let's just hope I don't get a 0 for any subject, I'll be very thankful for that.
I'm going to spend these few days diligently on the piano. I must master Les Derniers Jours D'Anastasia Kimsky (日薄西山情依依）well. Such a simple and lovely piece.
HandWritten on; 1:44 PM
I can’t take a day without you here, You’re the light that makes my darkness disappear.
Hello, I miss you too.
When you look me in the eyes, And tell me that you love me, Everything’s alright, When you’re right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes, I catch a glimpse of heaven. I find my paradise, When you look me in the eyes.
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
HandWritten on; 1:16 AM
Dance is your pulse, your heartbeat, your breathing. It's the rhythm of your life. Its the expression in time and movement, in happiness, joy, sadness and envy. --Jaques D'Amboise
I miss dancing everyday.
I'll be away, don't miss me (I know you wouldn't).
PS Pictures in june archives, cope them there :]
Everything around her is a silver pool of light The people who surround her feel the benefit of it It makes you calm She holds you captivated in her palm
She fills up every corner like she's born in black and white Makes you feel warmer when you're trying to remember What you heard She likes to leave you hanging on her word
Suddenly I see This is what I want to be
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
HandWritten on; 6:05 PM
Once again, spending today with Jingwen Simin and Tanjia was great. haha played taboo and attempted to cook clam chowder and fish finger. Not a bad try, despite the chowder looking very serous and like it came out from the viscera, but it tasted fine. Edible :]
Haven't felt so ingenous in a while, and it was like deja vu because last year we also spent one day at my place and many things were similar (the camwhoring spot, the cooking, the seating positions). haha don't know when will be the next time I see them, hopefully class outing on the 28th :D
Pics here :) And I've been listening to the mix, such a cool song !
There's:
Jason Mraz- I'm Yours Howie Day- Collide Five for Fighting- Superman 3 doors down- Here without you
Oh and Jacky enlightened me on the last two songs.
Angela Ammons - Always Getting Over You Boyzone - All That I Need
Love the mix !
Monday, June 16, 2008
HandWritten on; 4:19 PM
COUGHSCANDALOUSCOUGH
NEWYORK NEWYORK !
Anybody who's ever loved, you know just what I feel
Yayyy finally met up with my dears. And we're meeting again tomorrow, EXCITING :DDDD
I thought today was going to be a fruitful day. When I finally get a chance to stay at home and study, I HAVE TO WASTE MY TIME DOING FREAKING HOUSEWORK. I was about to start on my first question on math, when my mother told me that I needed to vacuum and mop the floor then wash and iron the huge heap of laundry (1 week's worth !!). So I spent the rest of the day doing the household chores.
AND MY PHONE IS TAKEN AWAY AGAIN, EFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF. How could I be so stupid to leave my phone on my dressing table ?! She is so perverse in trying to make my life miserable I SWEAR. LIKE WTH ! Why bother giving me a phone when you're going to read every single message inside and confiscate it as and when you like so that I can't meet up with friends ?? All my messages (some of which means alot to me) have to be deleted because I know you will read them. I don't have my own privacy and I can't even go out and enjoy life with friends. I've had enough, I can't wait to turn 21 and be free !
Okay that was kind of unsolicited. So just a reminder, I'm phoneless. @&*$#^%!*#! I am extremely cranky now. Make me feel better anyone ? Maybe only you can.
I just got some old photos from last year's sports day. And they're really memorable; I remember staying back till 11pm for practices and our efforts paid off, yellow cheerleading got champions :)
Alright, I will start studying soon. SOOOOOON.
Everyday is getting worse Do the same things and it hurts I don't know if I should cry All I know is that I'm tryin' I wanna believe in you I wanna believe in you But you make it so hard to do
What's the point of makin' plans You break all the ones we had I don't know where we went wrong Cause we used to be so strong I wanna believe in you I wanna believe in you
So why can't you be Be good to me
I don't ask for much All I want is love Someone to see That's all I need Somebody to be Somebody to be Somebody to be Good to me Good to me Gotta be good to me Good to me Please
I used to think I had it all Then one day we hit a wall I had hoped you were the one Where's my dream, where has it gone I wanted to be with you Forever just me and you
So why can't you be Be good to me
I don't ask for much All I want is love Someone to see That's all I need Somebody to be Somebody to be Somebody to be Good to me Good to me Gotta be good to me Good to me Please
Where do I go from here You've gotten under my skin And I don't know how To get out of this place that I'm in
I don't ask for much All I want is love Someone to see That's all I need Somebody to be Somebody to be Somebody to be Good to me Good to me Gotta be good to me Good to me Please
I don't ask for much All I want is love Someone to see That's all I need Somebody to be Someone to be Somebody to be Good to me Good to me Gotta be good to me Good to me Please
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
HandWritten on; 10:57 PM
Your subtleties
They strangle me
The walls start breathing
My mind's unweaving
I hate the fact that my emotions are always devouring me. I hate the fact that my freaking ego and jealousy comes out so easily. I hate the fact that I am so lazy, FUCK COMMON TESTS I NEED TIME TO START AND STUDY FUCKKKKKKKK
When darkness turns to light, it ends tonight
Sunday, June 08, 2008
HandWritten on; 2:39 PM
Journey of streetfest in few pictures and words
Camwhoring during pracs
Before performance
(Fried mars bars)
After performance !
I'll be away for dance camp for 3 days. More like, dance chalet. Dang, another 3 days gone. CT CT CT CT CT :O 1 more week to my demise.
Wish cast into the sky I'm moving on Sweet beginnings do arise The notes are old They bend they fold swing from the tangles of my heart
Thursday, June 05, 2008
HandWritten on; 11:20 PM
We must free up these tired souls Before the sadness gets us both
It tears me, time and time again, to realise that those moments have come to a pass. And now, I have to face reality, face the world that I will be working in for the next 1 and a half year or so. Heart wrenching. I miss you.
Everyday With every word whispered we get more far away The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing last forever, but be honest It hurts but it may be the only way
Wednesday, June 04, 2008
HandWritten on; 8:23 PM
And all I ever wanted was for you to know Everything I do I give my heart and soul
Tuesday, June 03, 2008
HandWritten on; 11:59 PM
Just look in my eyes, they'll tell you where this could go
Jubilate was good, but I didn't get to meet with flutes that day, AHHHHHHHHHHHHH ! We MUST meet up soon, like now.
Met my favouritest dancers (plus peter) and my wonderful class on sunday. It was great :D We took class photos, like yayyyyyyyyyy !
Streetfest pracs have been INSANE, no exaggeration. Still, we made an effort to visit Daniel. He looks so feeble and weak :( haha but don't worry we love you all the same !
Then we headed to anchor point to eat and shopped.
And you know what, it's moments like these that make me very happy.
I want juniors item back.
I LOVE YOU !
We won't fight and stop and stare at the way you hold me when you take me there at times I feel I lose control Forget everyone but the hand I'm holding
You got that extraordinary way Got to be next to you every single day You do something that I just can't explain Wanna take the chance and tell you you're the one for me
Please know this I'll always be right here And you don't have to look No where else babe Don't think for a minute This love will change Oh you should know that oh, I love you so Just look in my eyes, they'll tell you where this could go
Can you feel it Boy, I love you so Look in these eyes, they'll tell you where this could go I just want you to know
Plus jacky the photographer
Subway
Heeren
home !
COUGHSCANDALOUSCOUGH
NEWYORK NEWYORK !
Anybody who's ever loved, you know just what I feel
(Fried mars bars)
Then we headed to anchor point to eat and shopped.
I want juniors item back.